Today I am very unconvincing. Pretending to be happy is too exhausting to contemplate when I’ve spent all week being put in my place. It is too hard to answer questions like what is left who is left I’m not so sure now. I got it wrong somehow.
Sometimes when I’m trying to write about my experiences I stop suddenly and smack myself on the forehead and cover my face and just want to scream because I can’t believe that this is me.
I have written this post for the writing contest: How Writing Has Positively Influenced My Life, hosted by Positive Writer. Click here for more info! I’ve loved writing for as long as I can remember. It’s been the only constant thing that I have always wanted to do – thoughts of being a teacher, a…
I have been digging so hard dirt is all over my face and my eyes are damp from the strain of it all but no-one else can see. I have been digging it all up heaving it out of the ground and throwing it in piles all over my garden. The soil is soft and…
Gotta try to write a difficult thing tonight. I’ve been putting it off because it just hasn’t… come out. I had a difficult conversation with my manager about my medical history this week and I think that took it out of me and now my inspiration is shot to shit. Hoping Jack Daniels is gonna…
people keep saying how strong I am and I’m slowly starting to believe them.
jam tuna chicken kiev meat paste coke zero massage @ 5:30pm your voice in my head telling me I did the right thing.
Sometimes when you’re trying to say words at someone to tell them something, it’s really hard to find the right words. But then when you’ve stumbled about looking for the words, sometimes that person, if they are a little bit special, will say some different words back at you, and those words will be even…
I wrote a guest post for Ihavelynchsyndrome.com! If you’re interested in me blabbering on about Lynch syndrome and self-improvement and so on, clicky here: http://www.ihavelynchsyndrome.com/10-truths-lynch-syndrome-guest-blogger-sam-rose/#.VOeJJfmsVqU
I started writing something tonight (a potential guest blog post) then realised that I’m not in the right frame of mind at the moment to write it. I can’t deal with the subject right now. So I listened to myself, and I stopped. This is progress. Respecting my own feelings and doing the sensible thing…