sharp,deep cuts gentle grazes bloodied by the sun raised scabs crusting over pale white scars thinly streaking splotches of purple bruises fading to nothing but a memory as night begins to fall
I remember feeling January approach and wishing for a year so unlike the last, a year to conquer all years, a year to make up for everything. But that put the world under too much pressure; that was too much for it to live up to. I love to have nightmares because they make me…
If you can’t see it, covering your eyes won’t make it go away. So what will?
I’ve decided that flouncing in and out of weird moods triggered by, well, cancer-related triggers, is not good enough. I know I’m struggling to be positive but when I get into a funk, I get so deep into it that it’s like I lose sight of how and where I came in and it’s like…
I’m sorry I’m a walking disaster and I’m sorry that I want to show you all my fault lines so you know all of me. I’m sorry I’m cracking under the pressure of a natural disaster. I’m sorry if I ever make it sound like I want you to save me. I know you can’t.…
I press my palms together and fold my thumbs and close my lids and I bow my head – please don’t retreat. please.
I can feel myself coming down or going up, or moving in whichever direction is the right one. I don’t know how I’m doing it or how to keep doing it, but I hope I do.
I think I’m getting worse at hiding this. This is both good and terrible. Mostly terrible. Actually all terrible. I’m angry at the person I am now because I’m not the same as the person I used to be. I don’t know how to change. I could pick myself back up but I’m only one…
How many layers of clothing does it take to hide these scars? I’m not just dealing with my feelings about it I’m dealing with how I feel about those feelings and how I feel about feeling that way about my feelings Feelings on top of feelings on top of feelings until everything’s lost all meaning.…
For World Cancer Day today, I pitch to you that we need more knowledge, not more awareness. Sure, a picture of a candle shared on Facebook raises awareness, but I think by now we’re all aware that cancer exists, many of us painfully so. Awareness has been covered. We need knowledge – knowledge for a…