my mouth forgoes feelings so I can feel everything else the roof of my mouth goes numb so I can envelop myself in self-medication a vacation for the senses, a sensible meditation, a softening of the edges.
Really quick update about how terrible things have been because tonight is the first time all week that I’ve felt a bit more like myself, and I don’t really want to dwell for too long on how terrible things have felt.
When you message your friends back like “all good” but nothing this week has been very good, it just takes more energy to talk about it than it does to lie at this point and the drink isn’t blotting out the week nearly enough
agendergoldfish: [talking about the body i inhabit] “idk i just work here” I relate to this more than anything I’ve ever seen on Tumblr probably
find a corner that doesn’t look too grubby. s l i d e down the wall until you are twice folded – bottom on the floor, arms around your knees try to resist the urge to rock back and forth fail let your head fall forward close your eyes shut it out shut it all…
headphone wire like IV wire like attached to a drip like blood transfusion like PTSD like being tethered like being trapped like not at work like not 2016 like 2010 like 2010 like 2010
Saw this tweet today and it got me thinking: “Grief is the price you pay for love.” — INFP Thoughts (@INFP_Thoughts) 25 April 2017 Yeah, I guess grief is the price you pay for love but though I’m sure I loved my brother as much as a baby possibly could, I don’t remember it and…
maybe I keep writing about you because I am looking for that one sentence I could write to make you come alive for me. I realise this would be misguided. I know I can’t make you come back. It’s just that for me, it feels like you were never really here.
I have four poems in this anthology, Dandelion In A Vase of Roses! Available in paperback and on Kindle.
I found someone who could probably empathise with the loss of my brother, who would know what it’s like to not remember a family member and not be able to grieve… and they are a fictional character! It’s Rodney from Only Fools and Horses, which my partner has been watching recently. I can definitely relate…