Really quick update about how terrible things have been because tonight is the first time all week that I’ve felt a bit more like myself, and I don’t really want to dwell for too long on how terrible things have felt.

Long story short, a recurring problem I’m having won’t go away unless the next time it comes, I don’t do anything about it, don’t take the antibiotics I have been taking to make it better, and instead let it go bad and take it to A&E and risk being turned away which I fear is a possibility even though two doctors now have told me this is what I should do.

The truth is, I’m a bit scared of going to A&E. The last, and only time I went to A&E was seven years ago when I was 22, and it was the first time I ever had to go to hospital, and it led to my cancer diagnosis and having my entire colon removed.

Now, I KNOW this isn’t the same. I know that isn’t what is likely to happen this time. I know that. But it doesn’t stop the flashbacks to that horrible day, and that is part of the problem I have been having. That, and the fact that this current problem doesn’t seem problemy enough for A&E. It is neither A nor E. Still, that is what I have been told to do if the problem returns. Which it probably will in a week or two.

It has helped talking to my GP today to get his opinion. And it now being the weekend helps a little. Work plus uni plus health shit is a bit too much to handle. So that’s what’s been going on. And even if nobody is reading, it’s probably good to write it down, or something.