Hello! This is a quick update on my health situation. (I realise I always say “quick update” and it ends up being several paragraphs long.)

Since my last update three weeks ago I have had:

– Capsule endoscopy
– Hysteroscopy under general anaesthetic
– MRI scan (today)
– CT scan (today)

When the results for all this stuff comes back and we have a better idea of what we’re dealing with, they’ll send me an appointment (one for each consultant probably) and they’ll hopefully explain what we need to do to fix it all. I’m hoping that I’ll have this coming week to enjoy before they start calling or writing to me with appointments. Of course, the sooner things happen the better, but a short break from the stress of it all would be welcome. Not that it makes too much difference, really – I’m worried constantly.

I am low-key anxious and scared pretty much all the time, even while distracted by other things. It’s the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning. A friend asked how I was the other day and I was careful to say that physically I feel fine, but mentally, I am messed up. It has been hard, and it’s barely even started.

But I am still writing, and I was worried that I wouldn’t be. So that’s something. I’m just trying to enjoy the little things, find stuff to look forward to, and take it a day at a time.