Sam Alexandra Rose

Author: writersamr

  • Update: 23rd Sept 2018

    Hello world! (because apparently all my tweets and posts now have to sound like the start of a Visual Basic programming lesson.) I had my hysterectomy on Wednesday 12th September and came home on the Saturday, so I’ve been back for just over a week. I’m feeling really good today. The beginning of this week, the first few days of being at home, were horrendous. It hasn’t even been pain related to the wound, but sickness, wind and lack of appetite due to all the moving around of the bowel (or pouch, in my case) that they have to do. So the first few days were really hard and dark, and it felt to me like I wasn’t going to get better and everything was horrible. But things improve quicker than you realise they are, and last night I slept through the night in my bed without getting up to go to the toilet just to relieve myself of horrible wind pain. My appetite is coming back, I’m eating more, and here I am sat in my usual chair tapping away on my laptop.

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  • Update – 31st August 2018

    Throwing on Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance and getting all these words out here super quick just for the sake of keeping this thing and you people, whoever and however many you may be, updated.

    I’m having a hysterectomy (and ovaries removed) on 12th September. We can’t collect and freeze eggs first because that process might cause the lining of the womb to grow. So I won’t be having any biological children. I’m sure I’ll deal with that later.

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  • Publication Announcement

    I’m very pleased to have my new poem “Forearm” in Neologism Poetry Journal, and it’s this month’s featured work! You can read it here:

    https://www.neologismpoetry.com/august-2018/

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  • Publication Announcement – Cabildo Quarterly

    I have two poems out at Cabildo Quarterly today! “can you come to bed?” about not wanting to be alone while going through a difficult time, and “The Difficulties of Existing Gracefully”, which is the result of a little doodle and a free write I did.

    Read them both here.

  • Publication Notice – Soft Cartel

    I have three poems in Soft Cartel today – “hurricane”, “Edges”, and “The Boy in the Window”! You can read them here: https://softcartel.com/2018/08/03/three-poems-by-sam-rose/

  • Publication Announcement – Little Rose Magazine

    My poem “I am recounting” has been published in Little Rose Magazine today! Read it at the link below, and to give you a feel for it, I did a quick sketch of what was in my head when I wrote it:

    https://littlerosemagazine.weebly.com/home/i-am-recounting

  • radiation

    we take the afternoon off work to visit the nuclear

    medicine department of the hospital

    and in the evening I try to access some feeling and I ask
    myself

    if I cry, will that help flush the radiation out of my body?

    or will it just give the bags under my eyes a buttercup glow

    as if my pupils had become suns

    stop

    I say

    stop

    It was just a CT scan, just a tiny amount of radiation

    and you are just melodramatic

    you are just a girl, not spiderman

    and nothing is happening

    but that’s what burns

    that still, nothing is quite happening here

    no going nuclear, simply stoic

    script-sticking

    I compromise and just a couple of drops slip through

    that is all I can offer

    that is all life offers of anything

    just a little at a time

    just a little glow

    A version of this poem was published in Autumn Sky Poetry Daily in April 2021.

  • Publication Notice – Amethyst Magazine

    My second poem over at Amethyst Magazine is out now. What a busy month! Read it here:

    https://amethystmagazine.org/2018/07/29/cocoon-a-poem-by-sam-rose/

    I also did a little drawing to go with this one, after not drawing anything for a very long time:

  • I am eating lunch.

    I am eating lunch

    I am not fighting cancer.
    I am eating my lunch.
    And then I am going for
    a walk in the overcast
    bright of the day.
    And then I will go back
    to the office and write
    some articles. I might
    have a snack and
    listen to some music.
    There is no fighting here.


    Just noticed today is the 8th anniversary of my big operation. I’d be eight years cancer free today… if I hadn’t found out two months ago that it’s come back. That stings a bit. Here’s a new poem.