I never collapsed on you.
I tried really hard not to, and
I always found somewhere else
to lean, or to just fall over sideways.
I hate that I was the one to make
you worry, and I never go on guilt trips
so this is new to me, but I made sure
to buy a return ticket. 

I’ll still never collapse on you.
I could lean on somebody new
but I’d just feel bad for that too, 

eventually. I feel better telling myself
that I never collapsed on you
but a suppressed memory is telling me
that’s not really true.

I rarely collapsed on you.