I have been looking for books and things about dealing with cancer as a traumatic experience, and I’ve found more things talking about cancer being caused by stress than about it being a cause of stress. No wonder I used to try to figure out whether I officially had PTSD – some sort of validation on emotional issues would be nice.
Right now I am continually amazed at how far I have come. For example, I am currently drinking Diet Coke. From a can, without waiting for it to go flat or anything. Do you know how annoying it was not to be able to drink Coke for weeks? I was worried I might not be able to enjoy it ever again. God, I love Coke.
I would like to write something positive about what a great year 2018 has been and how I have so many resolutions for 2019. But I had cancer twice last year so obviously it was horrendous, not great, and I’d quite like to see exactly how that is going to fuck me up psychologically before I commit to performing great acts in 2019. Plus, there’s the chemo thing to wait and see for.
Hello! It’s been a while, hasn’t it? I thought an update was in order as I’ve been off the grid for a bit, so here we go.
I had my Whipple surgery on 7th November. It was eight hours long. It would have been six hours but they had to spend the first two just dealing with adhesions from previous surgery. Then I was in the HDU (high-dependency unit, a bit like ICU) for three days – I don’t remember much about that time. And then I was on a regular ward for eight more days.
My poem “First, Decide” has been published in Visual Verse! This online magazine provides a piece of artwork every month and invites writers to send in work based on that art. It’s a cool way to see how differently people interpret something and get creative with it. You can see my poem here: https://visualverse.org/submissions/first-decide/
You may have seen “Dew” before on my blog, but “The Merging is new and shiny. Both of them are a departure from my usual style – “Dew” because of the tone, while I had a lot of fun playing with space and formatting with “The Merging”. Enjoy!
Thank you very much to all of our contributors, readers and patient supporters. It has been a slow year for Peeking Cat while the magazine has been on hiatus, but I’m very happy that we have managed to get the anthology out – and in good time to make a great Christmas gift for any literary lovers in your life!
The anthology will also be available on Amazon within the next few weeks. However you decide to read it, please leave us a review wherever you can, and tell your friends! We look forward to accepting submissions for the next anthology, and hopefully the magazine, too, in the new year.