I’ve had a poem published in Amaryllis Poetry today! It’s called Seventy-nine and you can read it here.
my best friend is the one who
not only let me talk about my scars
and listened, but was
bold enough to ask to see them,
sweet enough to tell me they were badass,
and trusting enough to show me his own.
I’ve never known brotherly love.
I didn’t grow up fighting with siblings
or learning to ride a bike down my
street with a mocking grin and a
steady hand at my side. I grew up
with the knowledge that there was a
gaping hole where a boy should have been.
Where my big brother would have been.
the boys who are like big brothers to me
– even the younger ones –
are always working to fill the gap.
The boy who said I could call him at 3am
if I needed to. The same boy who dreamt
I died and called me to make sure it
The boy who can always tell if I’m not okay
and always checks on me. The boy who
supports my writing and encourages me.
The boy who goes out to eat with me and
listens. The boy who I always laugh with.
The boy who was my inseparable friend
all the way through school – Sonic,
Animorphs, Power Rangers, marbles.
The fiercest loyalty on the playground.
The boys who laugh with me even when
my jokes are terrible. The boys who make
me feel like I belong somewhere, like I’m
important. The boys who look after me
and let me support them, too.
The boys who will always matter.
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Confiding in a friend is like shouting – you have to get a bit closer before they really hear you.
I love how the friend I mentioned in the latest post basically answered the poem I had written in my previous post. <3
I received an amazing message today. It might not sound quite so amazing to other people, but it has made me feel so happy and empowered and excited. I was talking to my friend about all the things I want to do – travelling, different and unusual things, spontaneous things – and this was his reply:
“You beat fucking cancer there is fuck all on this planet you can’t do!“
I hadn’t even mentioned cancer to him but he straight away tapped into why I want to do all this stuff, without me even having to say anything. He got me, and he said exactly what I needed to hear. And now I feel so empowered, and strong, and happy and excited. That’s the reason he’s my bestie. I’ve written it down and taken a screenshot so I can look at it and remember, and I hope his words never lose their effect. Just amazing. And what’s more is he believes it, and he’s made me believe it too. What a great day.